Sometimes It All Feels Too Much

Lately I have been far too guilty of letting things get to me. The stresses and strains of everyday life seem to engulf me and leave me gasping for air and a break. How I long to be sat in the sunshine with sand caressing my toes, hearing the giggles of my boys playing and seeing smiles on all of our faces. I do need a break. But I won't be getting one anytime soon. 

Sometimes I feel like I am in some sinking sand. The weights of my worries and stresses seem to be dragging me further down into the sand. I seem to be trying to balance too much at the moment.  

Family life is hectic enough following the needs of everyone. Then you add on homework, reading, school routines, pack ups, every day housework, cleaning and cooking. Then add the pressure of socialising, getting my personal jobs done and making sure I see family. Then the extra jobs on top for the house, like sorting through old clothes, washing, doing the gardening. I'm sure everyone's life is just as hectic. We all have our commitments and jobs. We all have our lists, be it in our mind or on paper. We all have our stresses and strains. 

Usually I keep things in my stride, fairly well, at least. But lately, I seem to be piling more on my plate than perhaps I need to. Or maybe every day life seems to have built up to become one massive job list that never ends. 

I need to keep mindful though, I need to keep positive and remember that the dusting can be put aside. And perhaps we will survive if the washing waits one more day. And maybe it won't matter if I miss a blog post one week. Or if I don't schedule any social plans one week. I can't expect a holiday and break to land in my lap. And I certainly couldn't afford a cleaner or a cook. So I need to make my life easier where I can. And I think that starts by being kinder to myself. 

I need to remember.... it's ok if I can't do it all. It doesn't mean I'm failing. If I have a quiet week it doesn't mean I'm not social. If my house doesn't get cleaned one week, it doesn't mean I'm a rubbish Mother or house wife. And if my blog doesn't get done, it won't matter. 

I am doing the best I possibly can. And sometimes I will feel a lot better if I just stop and not allow myself to be overwhelmed with a never ending to do list. I will feel better if I stop juggling all of the balls and just let some drop. I will feel better if I press pause on life on social activities and on piling it on myself. I will feel so much better if I'm just kinder to myself. 

So, I forgive myself already. For the takeaway that I will order at the end of the week when I can't be bothered to cook. I forgive myself for never ironing because I just can not ever be bothered. I forgive myself for not doing that piece of research for my blog. And I forgive myself for not being the super mum that I sometimes wish I was. 

All I can do, in the wise words of Dory; 

Is just keep swimming. And pouring all of my love and attention into my family and my children. 

Do you ever get overwhelmed with everyday life and commitments? Pop a comment below, I would love to hear from you. 

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